Never Wanting to Go Back!

This trip to CDO has long been planned. I even filed my leave ahead of time. However, I did not book my ticket ahead. I was too complacent I guess. Or perhaps it is a manifestation of an inner desire to just stay here and never to return. Thus, I can't return to Cebu tonight because the boat is fullybooked and plane fare is way too expensive. So I'll extend another day.

After almost four years of being in this field, I am into that phase of having a career crisis. I am too old for this, I know. But this is how I feel. I am not sure if I still want to do what I do for the next few years. I am not sure if I am still effective. I am not sure if I am still needed. You see, I am not the type who lingers in a place where I know I cannot contribute anything. I don't like being compensated for something I haven't perform well. I don't like that kind of burden to my conscience.

I know I cannot leave now. But if I stay, I might not be able to leave anymore. But I also don't know where to go.

I miss having conversations with people who can somehow enlighten me on this one. Yeah, eventually I have to decide for myself. I just need another perspective.

Oh Well!

MICHAEL BUBLE

Haven't Met You Yet Lyrics

I'm Not Surprised
Not Everything Lasts
I've Broken My Heart So Many Times,
I Stop Keeping Track.
Talk Myself In
I Talk Myself Out
I Get All Worked Up
And Then I Let Myself Down.

I Tried So Very Hard Not To Loose It
I Came Up With A Million Excuses
I Thought I Thought Of Every Possibility

And I Know Someday That It'll All Turn Out
You'll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid That I'll Get So Much More Than I Get
I Just Haven't Met You Yet

Mmmmm ...

I Might Have To Wait
I'll Never Give Up
I Guess It's Half Timing
And The Other Half's Luck
Wherever You Are
Whenever It's Right
You Come Out Of Nowhere And Into My Life

And I Know That We Can Be So Amazing
And Baby Your Love Is Gonna Change Me
And Now I Can See Every Possibility

Mmmmm ...

And Somehow I Know That It Will All Turn Out
And You'll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid I'll Get So Much More Than I Get
I Just Haven't Met You Yet

They Say All's Fair
And In Love And War
But I Won't Need To Fight It
We'll Get It Right
And We'll Be United

And I Know That We Can Be So Amazing
And Being In Your Life Is Gonna Change Me
And Now I Can See Every Single Possibility

Mmmm ...

And Someday I Know It'll All Turn Out
And I'll Work To Work It Out
Promise You Kid I'll Give More Than I Get
Than I Get Than I Get Than I Get

Oh You Know It'll All Turn Out
And You'll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid To Give So Much More Than I Get
Yeah I Just Haven't Met You Yet

I Just Haven't Met You Yet
Oh Promise You Kid
To Give So Much More Than I Get

I Said Love Love Love Love Love Love Love ...
I Just Haven't Met You Yet
Love Love Love ...
I Just Haven't Met You Yet

Happy Birthday Charlie Mark!

Hangover

I haven't been drunk in a while. I am just an occasional drinker. And I know my limit. So when I get drunk(esp on purpose), it's either I am with someone who is broken hearted or I am broken hearted. But when I chose to be drunk last Thursday, I'm neither.

I just had to get drunk. But I am never doing that again. I wasn't able to work properly the next day.

Labaddddddd.... 

Wala Lang 7

Fishes

Seven years ago
Nine young ladies in pink skirts
With youthful dreams and aspirations
Were brought together by love and friendship

Together they shared
Happy Moments
Filled with joy and laughter

There maybe moments of sadness
But these are just small
They were able to get through

One thing that sets them apart
Is the calm, easy, and happy bond they have
They do not necessarily be together
To feel each others care and love

Seven years of togetherness
Until now they continue to share
And they know in their hearts
That the promise of this togetherness
They'll forever enjoy

Byang
2 April 2004

Fishes, that's the name given by a classmate in high school to our barkada. She said it was because we were like a school of fish that cannot be separated. 

Wow, how time flies. Who would have thought that we are still friends after 17 years. I've known these people for more than half my life. Along the way, of course, we have develop other friendships. And we added new friends to the group. But then we never forget. 

Personally, there are a lot of things that I do not know anymore about them. But then again, I guess it don't matter. When we communicate, when we see each other, there is still that easy bond. And in my heart, I know that they are the people who won't judge me, who will be there for me, and will love me.

I miss them. I don't know when we will be complete again. But I know, in God's time we will be.

Rarat, Amor, Ann, Nene, Kookie, Deebhe, Olga, Queken, Pani, Byang, Tingting

ASDFGHJKL!

Wala Lang 6

My Dream, My Reality

Four years ago

I had this dream

I was soaking wet in the rain

Hiding the tears that were flowing

For a love that just couldn't be

Then a man went to me

He dried up my tears

And comforted ,e

Four years after

I didn't expect that I would see

The reality of that dream

I met a guy

In the midst of distress

He brought back what i have lost

He became my strength

I fell in love with him

A I did deeply

But friends are all we ever could be

He has someone whom he loves dearly

So in the rain I cried

Unlike the dream that ended well

My reality just did not

But I'll continue on hoping,wishing

'Til my dream be my reality

And my reality be my dream.

byang

1 Apr 2004