the heirs

When it comes to watching series, I have this habit of doing marathon. I don't have patience of waiting for the next free day for the next episode. Though it is impossible most of the time to finish in one sitting, I try to finish the soonest possible. I don't want to be left hanging. And so this weekend, I finished the heirs.  It's a koreanovela about young love that initially cannot be because of circumstances. I'm amazed at how I can still be moved by stories as such. For some parts of the series, I actually did cry. I thought I am already past that cry baby stage. There is nothing with it though. I'm just amazed at myself. Hahaha

At around ep 17, I took a break and checked my blogger. And was surprised to see a new entry on a friend's blog. I got excited actually. It's been a while since his last post. I was bothered after reading his post. That I texted him after not minding that it was almost midnight. I'm worried up to now but I guess he doesn't want to talk . He didn't respond to my message earlier.

I felt his frustration. For him to consider breaking a rule, something bad must have happened. I went through the same.

He mentioned something that I told my boss weeks ago. I told my boss to allow me to charge activities related to evaluating existing processes, if it still works or if it really worked in the first place. At least now, I have a lot of references already.

I remember when I transferred to Cebu last year,  there were so many things that needed fixing. It was tough. As much as we wanted to cover everything, there were limitations. We had to prioritize and we had to make do of what we had. I can say that there were improvements. Especially if you talk about working as a team. Fast track to today, something must have happened along the way that somehow made almost everything to not fall in its proper place. And I feel like it's all in my shoulders.

I am all for change, esp. if it brings good for everyone. If I am to borrow LAL's words,  if we want different results then let's do away with status quo.

I have so many things in mind to put everything to order again. To achieve better results and most importantly for the team to find value in what they are doing. For them to see and feel the worth of their function and the personal benefit they get. It saddens me to actually hear just one person say that she loves her job. And that person is leaving. The irony.

I know I am not in my best shape right now. But regardless of my personal issues, I know I have a responsibility to the team. I cannot fail them. But I cannot do it alone. Someone has to compliment my weakness, if we are to achieve the goals we have set and more.  Fortunately, there's someone who can help me with that. We had an initial discussion last week. Though we don't agree in most points as our style and personality differs, we have the same end goal. And we make each other understand and see the value of our points. I can't wait for his return.

The change we made last year is the status quo of today. So it is time for something new.

I am excited for the end result.