struggle

Yes, it's an everyday struggle. Everyday, I fight the urge to think of you. Everyday, I fight that feeling of longing. How long has it been? I shouldn't be feeling this anymore. But I still do. So imagine the struggle when I am in a close proximity with you. When you have all the power to make me feel rejected and unwanted. Imagine how painful it is when you constantly make me feel that you don't care if I am here. And here I am, hoping that at least you'll show interest to spend time. 

Bullshit. Crazy. Funny. 

Yes, i love you. I still do. And if I am asked why, I don't know. 

Gosh.